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Friday, March 18, 2011

One in a Hundred

Ok, seriously, I am blogging a lot. A lot. And I am kind of scared that I am going to run out of things to blog about between now and the next 18 months-2 years+ before we are pregnant again.  But whatever, I've opened the gate and there is no shutting it now :)

I wanted to share, with permission, an email I received a couple days ago. Really, it was the impetus behind my starting the blog so early.  I had been thinking about doing it for awhile and then I got this from a law school classmate and facebook friend and I knew the time was now. The subject line read "Thank you" and here is what it said:

I just wanted to say thanks for educating me about birth through your fb posts and twitter feed and everything you have posted advocating for natural birth and midwives etc. Without your knowledge I have soaked up by quiet lurking osmosis over the years, I never would have stopped to think or been comfortable to demand what I wanted. I have been aware of water birth and the concept behind it since I was 16 but it wasn't until now at 29 that I have come to be comfortable with what it means and what I believe in. I am not sure I would have been comfortable making this leap beyond the mainstream. 

We are locking down our fb accounts (walls, tagging) this weekend as we will start to tell friends and fam (but not work) over this weekend. I am eight weeks on sat and cannot wait a moment longer. I met with the midwives group I am going with for this pregnancy today though, and I just had to tell you because without you I never would have even looked for them. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. And shhhhhh don't tell anyone!! ;)

After Emre's birth, I really thought about keeping my plans for our next birth a secret and only sharing them if I finally got my vaginal birth.  I didn't realize how many people were truly interested in my pregnancy and birth until after the fact, and I thought I might feel pressured during my next pregnancy about having to have a vaginal birth and really compromising my peace during that time, which of course could lead to me sabotaging myself and then all sorts of unnecessary emotional trauma.  But then, I get this, and I know my journey is so much bigger than just me.  I am speaking to women I don't even know are listening, and by allowing myself to be so open about my experiences, I am using my voice to make a difference.  

I've got my one in a hundred.


  1. LOVE!! It feels so good to know that someone really is hearing us, doesn't it? I randomly post circ articles from time to time for this very reason. Good for you Melek!

  2. Yes, it feels so good. I know I annoy 99% of my facebook friends, but that's ok. This email made it all worth it